I had a terrible day, thx 4 asking.
I got hugged by a certain dean who I do not even know and haven't even spoken one word to since forever and beyond in front of the whole of my year.
And yes, I realise my expression was like 'wtf' because I... don't... hug... adults... I would really have rather not been there at all... so if that's what I get for getting high distinction in nsw computers, i'll make sure to get all the answers wrong next time.
And all thru the day I kept getting 'congrats' from people... which is really quite peculiar. You know, if someone said congrats to you for accomplishing something, it's hard to know what to do. If you deny that it was nothing they would think you're being modest, but if you accept it seems like boasting/bragging. Which is why I prefer not to be congratulated. So to anyone who reads this, please carry on as if I were a normal human being who has not accomplished anything spectacular, because I would really rather not accept your congratulations. All I can really say is 'thank you', which is not like me at all because I am not a grateful type of person, as my family (also consisting of adults, btw) continuously tell me.
Which brings me to my next point... adults always believe that they have the right idea and know what is right in the world. My grandfather (who I can honestly say I don't care much for, since I never spend any time with him) has told me that I am conceited and am gonna be a pain when I become an adult, because politeness and etc. are important and people will not be able to stand me. Well, politeness and courtesy are all manmade things. There is no right or wrong in the world, only judgement. There is no good or bad, only judgement. The way we humans classify everything, what is pretty or ugly, what is a great feat or a disappointment, is all really just judgement. Someone stealing from a bank is considered to be bad. Why is it bad? Because of our judgement of what is 'fair'; people earn what they have, and others should earn their own money too. Yet, one could think of it in the perspective that the thief is 'earning' his money by stealing from others, which only possesses a greater risk than working in the workforce, which by the way is in every way similar to stealing from your boss, except for the fact that the person willingly lets go of their money.
So, what is right or wrong in the world? There is no right or wrong, no good or bad, no light or darkness. It is all human judgement, something we should all have taught not to do. 'Do not judge a book by its cover'. Who are humans to invent such a phrase? Everything in our world basically stems from judgement, judgement by the majority of the population of earth. Humans are also social beings, as according to my science teacher. They need to feel that they fit in, so this judgement of right or wrong is carried through the centuries. Every so often, the human race has the guts to turn from the majority -- an example of World War 2. Most of Germany was judging what was wrong or right by killing the Jews in the Holocaust, yet the world judged for itself what it thought was right and turned away from what they believed was the bad judgement.
I'm not denying it was a bad judgement, but my point is that if things had gone differently, our views of the world could be entirely different. Elbows on tables at meals could have been something to praise, slurping soup considered ladylike.
You see, there is only judgement in this world. There is no such thing as justice, no such thing as Heaven or Hell. And though our judgements of the world is on the basis of wanting everything to be 'fair'...
There is no such thing as 'fair' or 'even' in this world either, so how can we judge anything on the foundation of something that is non-existent?
Because humans are jealous, selfish and greedy. We even try to blame these things on something else in myths, take Pandora's Box for example. Why can't we just come to realise that we are the reason the world is what it is? You will argue that there is lots of good in the world too. 'Good' is still a human invention. And even then, do the 'good' things outnumber the 'bad' things?
Adults and children are all human. We make the same mistakes, yet adults think they are more superior due to the fact that they have roamed the place for longer.
And how does this make them superior? The only thing it proves is that they have human judgement more securely drilled into their brain.
Nothing will change in the world for a very long time anyway, so why am I bothering to type all this out? Stress release. I'm beginning to feel better, though all this chunk of text above is only a fraction of my frustration. I realise that by saying all this, I become a hypocrite seeing as this is my judgement of judgement. But it really is impossible to write my views on it without judging it first, you know. Feel free to discard my 'juvenile ideas' seeing as I'm merely a teenager who 'knows nothing about the world since she hasn't even seen most of it', but I won't force you to agree with me. It is a free world after all.
Or is that a human invention too? Woops.
In the end, the only thing I have to say is that I don't really want to grow up.